Kim just brought me a water. An hour ago, she was done with me. Such is life. You win some, you lose some, hopefully it works out in the end!
It’s usually my mouth that gets me into trouble. If I would just hush, things might go better. Of course, it’s usually my mouth that gets me into good things too. Live by the sword, die by the sword.
It’s the same way with blogging. Sometimes you write things you’re proud of. Other times, well, not so much. In fact, it was the constant self-censorship that played a huge roll in my withdrawal from the sport a few months ago. I got tired of worrying…can I say that?
Here’s the thing… I’m complex. Lot’s of men take pride in these words…” I’m a simple man.” Not me, cupcake. If I’m simple, then I must be one seriously dim lightbulb because I sure can’t figure me out. So, rather than admit to a major lack of intelligence, I’m going to go with being complex. Deeeeeep.
So, complex…
- I can be ultra-religious and Bible thumping at one moment, yet want to post pictures of the great time I had drinking beers at the Parrot Head party the next. Is that complex, honest, or doomed to eternal fire?
- I can be a monster of money-hungry, power-driven, egotistic selfishness on Monday, yet by mid-week be settled into a nice easy routine of super-homeschool dad and family man. Maybe that’s only when it’s a full-moon. I’ll look next time.
- And let’s not even talk about my career. Whoa! (pronounced WO-uh!) It makes me think of a song… what is that song… “There’s something happenin’ here, what it is, ain’t exactly clear…(now I got it)…STOP children what’s that sound…” oh yeah it’s the Vietnam song. Well, my career isn’t THAT BAD… but I’ve bounced around a little lately. Way complex if you ask me.
- I can be nice, mean, smart, dumb, generous, selfish, funny, funny, happy, sad, ugly, not really, occassionally humble… you get the picture.
Blogging the Real You
So, knowing this, is it best to blog more of the big picture? Or is it better to keep your posts universally acceptable? Will those pictures of me and the Jimmy Buffet impersonator come back to haunt me one day? Will I try for a big job and lose it because of some off-handed comment I made on the blog? It could happen.
But what is the point of a blog if not an expression of who we really are? Isn’t it supposed to be a Weblog, as-in a log of our experience? An account of how we see the world as we pass by? What’s more important, getting that big job, or getting a chance to really be an individual…forgetting what the world says about it?
One of my favorite lines from the movies, and one that has oft got me into a mess, is “Damn the Torpedos, full steam ahead!” All things considered, it’s still one of my favorite lines.
Speaking of the real us…
How do you like the new look of the blog? We LOVE it! We were getting tired of the old look and I wanted to show off my abilities as a blog designer so I pulled out all the stops. The result is totally us and we totally love it. Did you see how the little file tabs up-top change color when you roll over them? Cool, huh?
If it comes up in your day-to-day, please let people know that I can design an awesome blog for them (or you) too! I could use a little stability!
So we’re back, and since it looks like we’re still good for the “forever” part, Kim and I will be posting away! Fair warning…
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These things happen in every life, I think many bloggers are reticent to share these kinds of things but you should be applauded for your authenticity.
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wow Tim this has really got me thinking you are one helluva person!!! love aunt peggy
I think the struggle you find within yourself is much the same that Paul, you know the one in the Bible???
) talked about……..I think the fact that you have convictions is a huge reflection of who God has made you to be. And I like that. I enjoy your posts, and Kim’s too, and hope that you will continue to do so. You have fabulous ideas and a great sense of humor. Complicated is not bad at all…..as long as you know the grace and mercy of God, what difference does it make whether you have man’s or woman’s approval (ultimately). I realize you don’t want to seem offensive, but you’ve got what really matters, I think….sorry if I’ve written a book instead of a comment….so what do you charge for such awesome blog transformations??????
Suzanne
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Hi All – Thanks for the great comments. I hope that most people understand where I’m coming from. Even though I’m trying to be ‘real’ it’s not easy to stop worrying that someone, somewhere, will get the wrong idea about me or be less inclined to accept my witness as a representative of my Amazing God. I wouldn’t want to do that.
A friend of ours says “It doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful.” I agree and I say “I don’t have to be perfect to be a Christian, or to be loved and accepted by God.” Good thing, because I can’t do when I try, which is pretty much always. At the same time, I don’t see anything wrong with ME having a beer. Some people shouldn’t… kids, alcoholics (or me in the company of an alcoholic), and school bus drivers on duty, are a few.
So anyway…
As for blog design. Can I say “I’ll beat any competitor by 10%?” I probably better not go that far because there are levels of effort and creativity. But I’m looking for work and just getting started, so right now there are deals to be had!
Tim
Tim ~~ wonderful post. Thank you and love the new look!
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I love the new blog design!
Also–complicated is not bad. It’s a fabulous thing to be versatile and well-rounded. Embrace it! Why can’t you be a Jimmy Buffett-loving, beer-drinking, fun guy AND a “Bible-thumping”, homeschooling, family man? I don’t think being one means you can’t be the other. Some of the best people I’ve ever met have been diverse and had lots of interests, values, and experiences. It keeps you interesting!
Like I said in the other post, you will never make everyone happy. It’s also not the judgement of those people that should matter. Sounds like you are out to please God, your family, and of course, yourself. That sounds much more fulfilling and important to me anyway!
WOW!!